Shiny New Crushes

I can be a shallow person, I know that I can be. Whether it is in terms of physical appearances, disliking someone if they are not immediately super friendly or as was the case today, being overly excited over the acquisition of material goods.

I was in desperate need of a new school/ work/ gym bag, and being the yuppie that I am I splurged (for me, I AM on a student's budget after all) and bought a new Lululemon gym bag. Whether you like them or not, the Lululemon bags tend to be one of the few semi-stylish bags out there that can fit a lap top, text books and whatever else I might need for my 12-16 hour long days. While I know that its shallow, I am super excited that I finally got a new bag and in a way its lifted me out of the foul mood that I have been in the past few days. I know that I do not need new things to make me happy, and generally I do not, but on the rare occasion that I do splurge and by myself something nice, it makes me happy. Its just the excitement of something new.

It is the same sort of excitment I feel when faced with a new crush, or upon a crush displaying just a little bit of interest in me, like complimenting my hair, or saying that I am smart. Even though the relationship rarely goes anywhere, for a few hours/ days I feel like something great has just happened, even though nothing spectacular has occured. Its the same with a new possession (a bag for example). For the first few days every time I think about the new bag (crush) I get a little rush of happiness, and the rest of the time I am left with the general felling that life is good. However, after a few days, once I have used the new bag a couple of times and realized that it cannot in fact hold a laptop, ten books (8 for school, 2 for lesiure-which I never actually have a chance to read), a bagged lunch and snacks, cosmetics and a change of clothes in case I make it to the gym, the newness starts to wear off. The same goes for guys. I tend to think that all guys are great as long as they are:

A. Taller than me
B. Somewhat Ambitious

however, once I get to know the guy better I realize that he either:

A. Has a girlfriend/ is actually gay
B. Is a complete womanizer- and I like one woman men
C. Bad mouths people behind their backs
D. Is to easily scared off by my interest (obsession) with hockey and international politics, or simply in that I am too outgoing.

either way, once that intial newness is gone, and reality has set in, life kind of goes back to normal and unfortunately that feeling of silly happiness is gone, only to return when I find a new crush (which rarely takes long) or when my hockey team makes an amazing trade.

Here's hoping that I am not the only one who feels this way,
a Romantic.


PS- one of these days I'm going to make "My Ideal Man" and "What I am Looking For" lists, which are by no means the same thing. I'm just waiting until I feel that I have the time.

Also note- Dierks Bentley is by no means a new crush, he's an ongoing celebrity crush, I just love the picture.